Orphan'd.....

I woke remembering u today;

the sunlight hurt my eyes;

my tears stayed wrinkled across my wet cheek;

i no ur far away, never will u be mine....

my bed's empty

my heart breaks as i wake

every morning some new piece breaks...

i shatter it in your memory;

i wish t was broken less;

i can't think of wat to do....

I'm lost; wandering through the nights in ur memories;

whores that i sleep with to ease the pain of ur loss;

ur fingers that i kissed, now is a cold unfamiliar pillow

ur eyes that i looked into is my wall now

ur arms that i'ad adored is but empty space...

ur smile that i waited on is but just a fading memory

my loss is real, my tears real

s but gone, an era of joy, now plunged in darkness, blinded by sorrow..

stung by the cold

i shall remember u in my dark, deserted heart

strange cos i am just a visitor here;

of pain and better days..lie the wasteland

and the sun shines through the dew of my eyes;

pain....black, gray, wet pain.....i would have held on to you till the end of my world...

onward i go abandoned..

to know a day is closer to letting go off u

i mute my wail

none would understand

none would care;

u would'nt care;

niether would u understand;

that my heart could beg yours for you

years will pass by; the world will have moved on

but tonight i miss you; and i ll have missed u every night

till i fell out of it, and walked on...

remembering and then forgetting

love me hungry

love me naked

love me like a mother

love me like a child

let ur locks fall across ur face my love

that i may tuck it so gently like the breeze behind ur ears

dance with me love, naked that the breeze may kiss u in places my fingers have'nt traversed yet

look into my eyes love that i may lose myself in them

fold ur head into my chest love that i may smell the scent of ur hair

let ur lips melt into mine my love that i may let my soul into you

cry out loud with me love, so that we may die happy today within each other

let me cry and bury my head within u, love, that i may know i am surrounded by your love and warmth

let me die within u today my love, that we may remember it with zest

when seasons [ay homage no more to our lovely bodies

die within me love that i may know you were in love with me today, now and in this moment, that i may remember it forever as the day when i went to heaven...